sad...

on the 14th of July...I kena my very 1st saman...=(...
in Kota damansara...see...ms teng yee von...I go find you yam cha lor...that's why I kena...
haiz...
but it was not her fault lar...cause she did remind me...but we forget when we get down the car...

there was this silver kelisa-a woman...she bully me...=(...I saw the parking dy...but when i wanna turn go in...she went so close to b.boy's butt...so I don't get to park dy...
but...thank god...lalala...hehe...I found a parking right in front of the cafe...lalala...kena saman still so happy....lalala

sorry b.boy prime...

I am so sorry B.boy...I din mean to hurt you...ray was right...=(
but I did not hit the Kenari...according to Adrian, Terence, Jeremy, Ben, Joseph and Crystal...
but my car got scratches dy...sob sob =(...but according to my aunt that one can be polish....I haven try yet...try it tomorrow morning...hopefully it can....
haizs...........

what is in the purple wraper???

octtie....is now in her car...

lalala...I found it...

mmmm....today my adorable, lovely and pretty aunt woke me up...ask me teman her go market...=(...then we go breakfast in Atria then go visit my grandfather...he so cute...hehe
he keep asking me the same question all over again in a different way-what day is today??? what day is yesterday??? what day is today??? hehe then i keep taking picture in front of him...then say I siao...=( sob

Today is Michell birthday...so I go find her a present...hehe...as I find...I FOUND SOMETHING I BEEN LOOKING FOR SO SO LONG....which is lalala monkey....I found it...Mei ling...I book one for you dy...then we can have the monkey....hehe...when it come...

the color is different...is pink instead of red...but is holding the bag and wearing a christmas hat...hehe...=)...lalala(for those who don't understand-I love saying and typing lalala in msn,and this monkey is the picture that appear when I type)


this is her present....wanna know what is inside...CANNOT...hahaha
wait till saturday...=)


BLACK....lalala....



I miss you meng....lets go yam cha on sat morning...



you too jun hao...


AND THE MOST...YEE VON.....I MISS YOU...
you din't find me last sat...=(promise dy will find me every sat one ma...sob

time table for tomorrow...

plans : bath b.boy, wash clothes, clean up my room, go lunch with Michelle and trash her piano...

time : 8.00am-wake up and wash up
8.30am-soap the clothes
8.45am-bath b.boy
9.45am-wash clothes
10.00am-hang clothes
10.30am-clean room
11.30am-bath
12.30pm-rest
2.00pm-go find Michelle
5.00pm-go home
6.00pm-play with didi wong
7.00pm-dinner
8.00pm-continue play
9.00pm-read god's word
9.30pm-put didi to sleep
10.30pm-watch drama
12.00am-sleepzzZ

what a busy day....lalala....can't wait for tomorrow...
Katherine Stuart must finish all the things you should do only can go...
if not the same thing is going to happen again...
okokok....

wanna know who is Michelle???
she very sweet, nice, funny, scary and pretty...
hehehe...we use to be enemy last time over a guy...funny right???
I was told by someone that she betray me...and she was also told from someone that my best friends betray her...but it was all the someone doing...she tell me this but tell her that...so we hate each other....last time...I use to hating her so deep till me myself also don't know how to let it go...even when I don't like the guy anymore but I still hate her...because she were my good friend in church and i love her so much...I hate her because I thought she was fake...even when she leave Malaysia and go to S.L i still can't let it go...slowly I became a really bad person, I hate and angry at people very easily...I hate my aunt, my friends, my mom, my aunt, my uncle, so on....

But as Michelle came back to Malaysia...I was asking god what are you trying to do???
My best friends has change church and she is back??? and became my cell leader...what???
Life was not easy that time as I am facing so many difficulties...study fee, family (mother-mental break down), sister (pmr this year, and mixing with the wrong friends in school), brother (can't find him at all don't know how is he doing, and have no one to discuss how and what to do), make big decision of life (which causes so many people hate me and call me shui lui)...and then when all this is not solve yet...here she come again...

It make me feel like not going to church at all...I hate god and don't understand why can't he just show himself to me when I needed him the most...I can't stop crying day and night...I cry in college...in home...in car...etc....

But now...I have learn...I learn to let go...I use to ask myself how can I let go....I can't don't care my mom...I can't let michelle or people who hurt and bully me hurt me again...if I don't check on my sister, she will become a bad girl...how??? how to let go???

And i heard a word from god...he told me to focus only him...I was like you bring Michelle away then I will focus only you....
The other day...my aunt Kathy she show me an example...she say I cannot be holding and see all my problems so big...then she show me an example...she ask me to look at the pen, and only the pen...things around the pen are all slowly become blur...she told me: god is asking me to focus on him (pen) and see the problems around me blur not by big or small...and solve it one by one...

As time past...I learn to see problems as blur and see things in many different view...I learn that people are not perfect...Jesus has die on the cross for you and me...he is not even a sinner and he is a god but yet...he choose to sacrifice himself to save us(sinner)...so I learn to let go and make a first step...

I choose to forgive everyone that has hurt me...because I love them...I can love a stranger why can't I love my friends??? If god can do it...so do I...
So me and Michelle start going out...and during college...she will come all the way to the one academy to find me...at first I taught she was in Monash but I was so touch when I found out that she was in Taylor and yet she is willing to walk all the way to the one just to find me for lunch in a really hot and sunny time which is 12.00pm...

And recently...I found out that...she was not the one who has betray me...it was someone else gossiping...and this someone is from church-a leader...but I told myself who never make a mistake before...I should not busy body...I should let it go...

Now my sister is the one who call me every Saturday and ask me to fetch her to church...My mom is better now...and friends around me are changing...and I realise my life was not that bad after all...I have so many best friends that would stand up for me when I am bully by others and pull me when I fall...I have aunt Melina, Uncle Jason, Didi Wong(Daniel), Diana, Mommy Wong, aunt jenny, Michelle, Mei ling, su ching, yee von, mum, kate, kris, june, cae me, jessica, aunty helan, mandy jie jie, aunt soo lan, pik jin....and so on...

see how wonderful god is...if he were to just take away all my problems like that...I would not be who I am now...Life is so meaningful...we laugh, we cry, we angry, we emo....it will be so meaningless if we just laugh in the whole life...
I love myself...because I know how to think now...
and I know there is nothing to be afraid of for all things are possible with god...
he has show me how thoughtful and loving he is...he was the one who teach me, mold me, and strengthen me...

HATE: CAN PULL YOU DOWN AND DRAG YOU AWAY FROM GOD....I don't want a second of my life is without god in me...I love him...That is why I choose to let go...to be more like him...I wanna draw people around me to him...I wanna shine like a star to the people around me...show love to the people around me...so that they will come to god....that is why I Katherine Stuart call myself a christian...

by the way this is Michell...

does it end???

feeling: joy...depress...anger...stress...fear...exited...hyper...down...emo...guilty

what are you feeling right now???

me...I am feeling scare, depress & guilty...but I don't know why am I feeling this way...this two feeling has been following me ever since my mom leave the house...
It was all my fault, I was the one who told my uncle that my mom hit me...if i din not slip it out by accident...this will all won't happen....

That day, I had a minor car accident in LDP, it din really freak me up....what freak me up was from the phone call I receive-my mom's boss (telling me that my mom is afraid that me and my sis will not treat her as our mother...and mistake my aunt and uncle as our parent) and that is why I know why my mom work so hard she work two job-because she wanna prove and move back to our ex-house, she want to stay with all her children...)

Scare...I am scare to loss my mom...I can't afford to loss her...the fear is back again...It remind me of the voice I heard that warn me(not to go any closer to god, or you will loss the one you love) I am scare...really scare...I work so hard...study so hard is all for a reason-which is giving my mom a good life...shopping, watch drama, facial...I wanna give her the best I can...

I wrote a song lately...but I don't have the courage to move on like god want me too...I feel sad...god did so much of me...but I don't even dare to do a simply little thing he asked me to...

I really don't know how now...

I scare that I have make the wrong decision...because A.Jennifer always bully my mom...my heart hurt so much when I hear she gossiping my mom, hearing from my a.melina-telling me what jennifer said about her, and hearing my mom saying she don't let her do this do that...THE ONE THAT HURT ME THE MOST IS SAYING MY MOM IS CRAZY...she is not crazy...she is just crazy in love with us and god...is that a sin??? I don't think so...

I have learn to control my anger...instead of hating them, scolding them, shouting back...I learn to stand on the other side and see things in many different way...I learn to shut my mouth when I need to...I stay strong and sure of what I think is correct...I don't care what other say...for that is not important...what is important is that how am I going to solve it...and set a good example...

But now.....instead of angry...I become sad...shoot.........

a day out with family...

On 13th Saturday...I am free again...In the morning we went breakfast in Damansara Jaya(my favorite Dim Sum shop-beside Maybank) They have the best Dim Sum in town...Its fresh and big...the environment is good too...got the feel of olden day...yam cha eat dim sum...=)...lalala

While we were eating I sang a song ( it's gonna rain ) then my sis (Gps) scold me : don't so stupid ok??? is just haze...
By the time we finish eating...I was right, it rain...lalala...I so smart...too bad we din bring umbrella=(...me,my sis and my uncle...ended up being the "lok tong kai"....taking the umbrella up and down for the king,queen and princess...hehe...

Then my uncle say he want to show me his new office in Kota Damansara-ID INDUSTRIES....so I follow lor...
Wow...the office is so chun...it's so huge...and nice...cool too...there got karaoke (big big screen somemore)...bar...V...and so many fun things...
So as usual, I love to sing...lalala...so my uncle open the karaoke for me and I me stay there don't disturb him=( cause he need to go for a meeting with Fiona(his staff)
look how didi wong sing...so cool...new stlye...

Then we went dinner in Duck King...The food there so nice...delicious...then we went cold storage...to buy staff for house...lalala...

and didi wong is the one who push the trolley...hehe